We arrived in San Francisco on September 2, and stayed at wonderful Hotel Cornell de France on Bush, between Union Square and Nob Hill.  The Cornell is a nice small hotel, run by a French couple from Orleans, with attached French restaurant, “Jeanne d’Arc” downstairs, with its Medieval dining hall appearance.  Wonderful breakfasts with rich French coffee in the quiet setting.  The rooms are small, and decorated with French art– our room had one of my favorites, the Fauvist Raoul Dufy.  The only  problem for me, in staying there, was that I was constantly confused, expecting to step  from the lobby into Paris’ Latin Quarter.  But, San Francisco did actually have a lot in common with Paris.  Both are elegant large cities with a sense of life to them.  San Francisco, I was reminded, is the most attractive U.S. city, mainly because it is on the Pacific Ocean, but also due to its Asian influence, hills, and unique architecture: a mixture of Beaux Arts and Victorian.  Unlike Paris, or most large American cities, San Francisco was not so fast paced.  Taxis cruised down red painted taxi lanes in the middle of three-laned one way streets, and pedestrians were not hurried at intersections.  Traffic, even rush hour, seemed to flow, and with little honking involved.  There were not a lot of diesel spewing busses, and no metro stations.  The city did not seem  that densely packed downtown.   Maybe I just haven’t seen it enough.  The taxi drivers were friendly and chatty, and the fares moderate, running around twelve to fifteen dollars across town.  There are not a lot of taxis crowding the streets in swarms of yellow, jumping lanes.

The overall impression was of a beautiful mixture of International Style modern skyscrapers and and neo-classical masonry office buildings, mixed with three story Victorian apartments, and the brisk 66 degree weather.  Light jackets appeared around 6 p.m.  White cumulous clouds decorated a medium blue sky, above the wonderful panoramas of the sea from the various sections of the city.  Especially beautiful was the view from Lincoln Park.  I was struck by the diversity and the collective atmosphere, of the communities of Asians and Hispanics, rather than the individualistic feeling of smaller towns.  And, what great neighborhoods: Russian Hill, Embarcadero and Fisherman’s Wharf, North Beach, Lombard, the Mission, Chinatown, etc, all distinct.  Union Square was elegant, clean, and European, without all the people, and with the beautiful Victory Column in the middle, benches, and a German style outdoor cafe, all surrounded by the Westin and attractive buildings belonging to Saks Fifth Avenue, Williams Sonoma, Macys, Tiffany, etc.  The Victory Column, dedicated to the late President McKinley by President Roosevelt in 1901, was a tribute to Admiral Dewey and his victory at Manila Bay in the Spanish-American War, interesestingly our first foray into the international arena.  It was hard not to think of where that has led– to Iraq, Syria, and Ukraine in the current newspapers.

And, it was cool outside.  We sat in the Starbucks on the 4th floor of Macys, and looked through the plate glass at the Square below and the red double decker, open-topped, tour busses going by, the passengers on top taking photographs and looking San Francisco happy.  And, we could see the 1915 stucco and brick, cream colored Chancellor Hotel next to the Westin,  where we had stayed when we became engaged.  We remembered our original engagement dinner at “Oriental Pearl,” formerly “China Pearl” Restaurant on Clay Street in Chinatown, down from Eastern Market Chinese Bakery.  Looking out at the square, my wife noticed that this was where they filmed, “The Conversation.”  Her comment reminded me of other San Francisco films:  Steve McQueen racing the streets of Russian Hill and North Beach in his green Mustang (we were on some of these streets the day before in a Toyota Prius taxi), and also Jimmy Stewart and Kim Novak in her wonderful apartment at Mason and Sacramento.  From a taxi window, I saw McQueen’s (Frank Bullitt’s) apartment in the 1100 block of Taylor.  You can still see his corner apartment and the grocery where he shopped. I did not see the newspaper rack that he forced open.

We had Pizza Magherita and gnocci Bolognese in North Beach at Restaurant deLillo, which reminded me of a European cafe, followed by gelato and pastries at Cafe Roma down the street, a venue decorated with Italian soccer jerseys, with its huge old red coffee grinder in front, and with background music playing early 60s music: “There she was just a walking down the street, singing oh wah daddy, daddy wah, daddy woo…”  and “I’d like to get to know you, yes I would….”   Went shopping at City Lights Bookstore and picked up a Philip Roth biography.  I happened, while browsing, to glance out the front window, and observed an open-topped red tour bus at the stop light, with a rather alert looking mother sitting up top, holding her blond two year old tightly around his waist with her left arm as he stood on her lap.  As the bus took off, the wind blowing their hair, the boy stretched both arms out, his smiling face a picture of joy, his mother hugging him, holding him tighter to her, while at the same time  extending her I-phone in front of his face with her right arm so he could watch the screen as they raced off.  Last I saw, he was bouncing up and down.  A captured glimpse of the joy of life.   That evening, we went to  the Davies Symphony Hall, with its beautiful cream colored interior and dark stained wood orchestra, and listened to the marvel of Ravel, Stravinsky, Tchiakovsky, and my ultimate favorite piece, the introduction to Prokofiev’s “Romeo and Juliet,”, which sent my spirits soaring above the glass acoustic panels hanging from the ceiling.  Sheri had to listen to my humming the refrain, like the wind zithering over the steppes: “zoom–ze zoom– ze zoom–ze zoom;    duh– de duh– de duh–de duh,” for days.

On our first full day in town, we took a cab to the Legion of Honor museum in Lincoln Park, a neo-classial replica of the French original, dedicated in 1924 and donated by the Spreckles (sugar) family, the same Mrs. Spreckles who collected the art, and who rose from a laundress to the heights of society in the Gilded Age, and who is the model for the bronze lady on the top of the Union Square Victory Column.  The Museum had  wonderful view of San Francisco bay and brought back memories of my earlier visit to the gallery with my childhood neighbor Larry Wilson, who was doing his residency in San Francisco.  It was one of many such visits to the ever hospitable Larry: in Washington D.C., Long Island, Washington Square, Albuquerque, etc.  It was a great loss when Larry died young, an engineering major, who read everything and played classical guitar, and studied English history and literature as a second major, and knew the ballads, and walked and re-walked British history on family trips to England, and built model rockets as a kid, and became a computer techie early on and worked for IBM in the 1970s  before Medical School, and bicycled across the U.S. west and up to Alaska, and  worked at a NASA tracking station under a college co-op program.  Wow.  He was a true Renaissance Man and had a great sense of humor.  A couple years ago, I ran into a university professor from my hometown of Roswell, New Mexico, who had  graduated from high school there in 1962.  When I asked if he knew Larry Wilson.  He smiled and said:  “Larry was the smartest person who ever graduated from Roswell High.”

Inside the wonderful museum, I listed my favorite items: There was the great collection of Rodin bronzes, but my favorite Rodin was an 1880 white plaster bust of Camille Claudel.  I also loved early Flemish Renaissance pieces, including two a ivory carvings, the first of mother and child, with her silver crown added later, and her beautifully carved folded robe, dated 1300-1350 from the Meuse Valley;.  The second a diptych panel–a small rectangular piece about two inches by one inch, showing a few crack lines running vertically in the ivory, entitled “Scene of the Crucifixion,” dated around 1350 from Middle Ages Germany, Rhenish.  So small and so elegant.

There was the best Rembrandt I have ever seen, a 1632 portrait of “Jaris de Cauleri,”  in brown suede coat and iron breast and neck plate, and his hair a bit fuzzy, and with an overall brown palette rather than the black we are used to with Rembrandt.  There was also the best Franz Hals I have ever seen, his 1631 “Portrait of a Gentleman in White,” again not the usual black, but with the sitter wearing a white cloak which dominated the canvas, and with his arrogant expression, his van Dyck beard, and slightly pronounced blood vessel in the forehead, set against the beautiful light gray background, and all done with broad brush strokes that were not readily visible.

I made a new discovery, Charles Daubigny, whose 1857 “Vision of Glaton,” with the thick paint illuminating the stream in the foreground, white Dover like buildings in the background, visible on an embankment, and an overall dark green landscape.  Sitting in the middle of the gallery was a 1910 bronze sculpture by another discovery, Rembrandt Bulgatti, related to the car manufacturer, a beautiful green animal sculpture entitled “Hamdryes Baboon,” a bit stylized and geometric, perhaps a bit cubist and marvelous.

In the Impressionist and post-impressionist gallery, there was a small Vincent Van Gogh, the 1886 “Shelter on Monmartre” from his Paris period, made with clashing brush strokes of cream, tourquoise, and white, displaying a small, delapidated building, almost a shack, and clear sky above.  There were no strong brush strokes you associate with van Gogh.  There was also a an Alfred Sisley, his 1891 “Banks of the Loing,” with a teal colored river in the foreground and mossy lighter teal colored trees on the opposite bank, the canvas almost a blending of green-blues.  There was a medium sized painting by Paul Cezanne of a forest scene, cubist, the canvas broken into brown sections of the landscape.  You can almost see how Hemingway learned to write from looking at Cezanne, deconstructing a scene into sections– Cartestian.  There were two two Degas’ items, an 1870  painting in gray chalk, “Musicians at the Orchestra,” showing the woodwinds, and an 1881 bronze sculpture: “Trotting Horse, Feet Not Touching the Ground.”  How wonderful to see the feet all in the air at once, flying for a moment.

Other favorites included a 1910 Russian tea service and table, the service in silver, with white ivory handles, the table of Karelian birch and lemonwood, and goldsmithing done by Faberge.  It was a gift from a benefactor, dedicated to the memory of the 5,600 California soldiers killed in World War I.  Downstairs were the archaic and classical sculptures, including some beautiful thin Cycladic marble figures of women, dated 2500 BCE, with arms crossed over the chest, and a 6th Century BCE small green Etruscan “Statuette of a Reclining Banqueter,” in bronze with the stylized Etruscan lines depicting draped folds in the banqueter’s robe.  In the gallery dedicated to porcelain, I admired the Sevres plates, especially one done by the decorator Auguste Berlin, entitled “Vase du Albert, 1921,”  white and plain, modernist, with chocolate brown lines creating vertical sections.   Near the gift shop, there was a beautiful Persian carving, dated 490 BCE, entitled “Relief of a Gift Bearer,” of brown colored bituminous limestone, from the Palace of Darius at Persepolis.  There was an Egyptian Late Period (525-337 BCE) Ibis with long pointed beak in green and tan, made of bronze and wood.  And, finally, there was the small wooden piece, from Middle Period Egypt (1985-1836 BCE) entitled “Scribe of the Royal Ducs,” with the scribe carrying his writing material, in Kourous, mid-step pose, one leg extended while walking straight backed, wearing a white robe from waist down, and using natural grains in the wood to create human contours.   There was also a wonderful Matisse Exhibit, on loan from the San Francisco MOMA which is under renovation, including the signature item– the 1908 “Girl with the Green Eyes,” adorned with coral colored blouse. I admired Matisse’s colors and simple lines and learned that Matisse and San Francisco were connected, that San Francisco had a lot of Matisses early on due to a local collector, and that Matisse had been surprised buy the large crowds showed up at his arrival in San Francisco for his exhibit.

Those were my favorite items in the Museum, but there were a lot of other wonders as well, including Jan van Goyen’s “The Thunderstorm” (1641); van Ruysdael’s “View or Niminjem” (1648) with castle in the background; Anthony van Dyck”s Flemish “Portrait of a Lady,” (1620) in the usual black and white Dutch mode; a beautiful cabinet containing a house altar, done in Mainz in 1760 of walnut, fruitwood, and gilt bronze; a Faberge rectangular box, 3″x1″ with some filagree, from 1896; a Faberge cigarette case, rounded, made with jade diamonds and gold, dated 1910; a Camille Corot painting, “Banks of the Somme at Piequigay,” dated 1865, with boat and fishermen in the foreground, mossy trees beyond, and a spire in the distance; an Aristide Maillol female torso sculpture in guilt bronze entitled “Ile de France,” 1921; a Monet, “Water Breaking,” (1881), of strong waves breaking on the surf, all whites and blues, and touch of yellows mixed in; an interesting Monet, reminiscent of Manet’s studio boats, or Calliabote’s rowers, entitled “Sailboats on the Seine at Gannevillers,” (1874); a Renoir of a young child petting a cat, grabbing at the fur as the cat endures it, the mother telling the child to be gentle (1883); a Manet, “At the Millneres,” in black (1881); Jules Bastien Lepage (a new discovery) “Snow Effect,” (1882), with its snow covered fields and opal sky merging; a Cypriot sculpture dated 6th Century BCE, “Head of a Bearded Man,” in limestone, with curly beard and missing nose; a Sicilian sculpture of a “Dancing Woman,” in terracotta, with traces of polychrome, dated 2nd Century BCE; some lekythos and alabastron vessels, dated 460 BCE, with white ground background and black figure seated woman holding a mirror; and a red figure hydria, dated 470 BCE, with flying Nike holding phiale plates in each hand.

Before we left, we had Indian cuisine at New Delhi Restaurant, near Union Square, and Chinese at “Moon Over Cathay Restaurant” in Chinatown, pan fried tomato beef chow mein, in honor of Oakland family friend Max Powers, who led a noble life fighting for liberal causes.  On our way home, we had lunch at El Dorado Kitchen in Sonoma with a close friend and wonderful artist from Helena.  Life is good.

I start my trip to Ft. Worth in Roswell, my home town, leaving Eastern New Mexico, driving on a two lane highway to Tatum. This is high plateau country, flat and barren, but with areas of straw grass which turns green in the occasional wet years. There are few houses or trees along the way, only black Angus cattle grazing in the fields, well beyond the fences which line both sides of a highway which runs to the Texas border with few curves.   The land is dry after years of drought, and is mainly bramble and tumble weeds, and short, thistle trees we called Russian Olives when I was a kid.  The overall impression is of a tan landscape below endless light blue cloudless skies.  There is no shade, and the temperature is about 100 degrees, creating a slight haze.  My feelings about the landscape are mixed.  The car’s air conditioner is having difficulty keeping up with the heat, and I have become accustomed to the greens of Virginia and the Pacific Northwest, Montana’s rivers and mountains, and California’s Pacific Ocean and golden hills. But, the prairie still holds emotional appeal.  It is the land of space, of far horizons and freedom, the land I grew up in and idealized, home.

The satellite radio is playing Judy Collins on the 1960s station, as I pass through Tatum, with its abandoned tan brick buildings which used to house a steakhouse and some farm implement companies. I pass an empty lot which used to be a mom and pop hamburger stand, a regular stop on my weekend runs home from Lubbock to Roswell, forty-five years ago.  I pull into the Alsups gas station and convenience store to gas up, and, when leaving town pass a wrought iron sign company, the only going concern around.  On the outskirts, I pass the airport, now closed, with its dirt runway, a few corrugated tin hangars, and torn wind sock, and come to a highway crossroads, a center point in a way, of my life.  My son went to college down the highway to the left, in Portales.  My folks lived at times down the highway to the right, in Lovington, and I lived as a grade schooler for a year that direction, in Hobbs, an oil town where my dad was in sales.  Behind is Roswell of my youth.  Ahead is Lubbock of my college years, and Odessa, where my family migrated.  Eastern New Mexico and West Texas are similar.

Judy Collins has been replaced by Simon and Garfunkel’s “Scarborough Fair” on the car radio, reminding me of station KOMA, which I used to listen to during college on these roads, coming in clear through the night from Oklahoma City.  The landscape changes as we move into Texas, passing a stone monument in the shape of Texas, announcing our arrival, and just before that, a metal billboard painted yellow and rust red, the New Mexico flag colors, with the words “Hasta la Vista.”  Now, we are in farm country.  There is more agricultural activity, more irrigated fields with dark green alfalfa and soy, more grassland in general, more great plains perhaps than prairie.

Entering Plains, Texas, I see there are fewer businesses than before.  Much has been closed, but there is still the Yoakum County courthouse, the Dairy Queen watering hole for locals that Larry McMurtry describes in his novela, the typical spreading, tan brick, High School, and some run down residential neighborhoods.  The highway dips on the way into town, into a gully and back onto a rise, with a gas station on the right as you enter the city limits.  I twice received traffic tickets here.  Once in the gully, looking in my rear view mirror to see the face of a Texas Highway Patrolman (“Department of Public Safety”) right on my bumper, unseen, out of nowhere, his red lights flashing, pointing his finger for me through my mirror to pull over.  It was close up and personal, and I submitted in awe.  I always sped and never thought I could be surprised.  On another occasion, the local sheriff stopped me at midnight in the deserted downtown, on my way back to college from home, pulling rapidly up behind me in his blue unmarked Pontiac with his red lights on in the front grill, his door flying open, jumping out of the car, and striding quickly up to my door angrily, standing there in his cowboy boots, western style suit, and cowboy dress shirt with shiny snap buttons on the pockets and sleeves.  He told me I can’t race through “his” town, then walked back to look at my license plate with his pad in hand, stopping, however, when he saw the red and black Texas Tech “double T” logo on my back window.  He sauntered back to my window, looking at me a few seconds and deciding, then with a small two finger salute to the brim of his felt cowboy hat, said without expression “beat A and M,” meaning Texas A and M, which Tech was playing that weekend.  He closed his pad, strode back to his Pontiac and roared off around me, no ticket.  I think I was still saying “yes, sir,” as he left.  That was Texas in 1967.  Football was king.  And, yes, I love Texas.  I grew up all over the state: Levelland, Pecos, El Paso, Amarillo, Houston (Pasadena), and Lubbock.  Texas is my home, just like Iowa and New Mexico.

From Plains, I continue south towards Denver City, site of one of the first major oil strikes in Texas, in the 1920s, still an oil and gas capital, with wells scattered on both sides of the highway and a refinery on the left.  Denver City is small, consisting of a few manufactured buildings and converted Quonset huts from World War II housing small oil companies and oil field service companies, with a few 1940s style small white wooden house scattered around.  There is, of course the Alsups 7-11 and gas station, with heated up burritos and chimichangas. Dad and I used to get them on the road.  Cattle are scattered in the fields amid an undulating countryside of arroyos and buttes.  Rust-red Haliburton oil field trucks and oil tankers enter the highway from dirt roads.  As I approach the outskirts of the next town, Seminole, I run into a bit more traffic.  Seminole is the typical West Texas small town, about 20,000 population, a county courthouse, rows of stores around a central square, and two main streets intersecting each other, one running east and west, the other north and south.  The buildings are a mixture of brick and masonry.  The streets are lined with gas stations, drive ins, and family style Mexican restaurants, their parking lots full of cars and pick ups.  We are in Permian Basin oil country; the smell of oil is in the air.  The clouds above are white and billowy.  These often turn into thunderstorms in the evening.

Finally, I reach Odessa.  Cezanne would offer up broad impressions, as would Hemingway, of oil rigs and pick up trucks, ranch style houses, broad streets, shopping centers, and fast food Mexican restaurants like Burrito Express, which was my Dad’s favorite, Taco Villa, which has great soft flour tortillas for its bean burritos that my nephew likes, and Rosa’s, which is informal but not fast food. Rosa’s for me means Taco Tuesdays.  And, Odessa is Fina Gas stations and franchise restaurants: Logan’s, Outback, South of the Border, Macaroni Grill, Red Lobster, etc.  Odessa is flat horizons and the setting sun and warm nights still bright at 10 p.m., and the good feeling that comes with the bright, warm evenings.  It is the restfulness of the desert landscape, the radiance of neon lights in the distance, and the feeling of space, of not being closed in by vegetation, tall buildings, or topography such as hills.  Cezanne would evoke the sandy tan colors which pervade everything.  And, unlike the East, there is the relative newness of everything, houses, shopping centers, bank buildings, schools, and streets.  It is a southwestern image: the lights of baseball and football stadiums in the bright nights, Southwest, Delta, and United jets gliding down from cloudless skies to the local airport, shadows and sun alternating in the daylight, tinted car windows,  Hispanics and cowboys, Carhart clothes, pickups, western boots, and western drawls.

It is a land of friendly people, who say “howdy” to strangers and smile, and of ladies who run the dry cleaners and say in their high-pitched voice, “you come back,” and mean it.  It is the Taco Villa drive through window attendant, a young Hispanic, who compliments your car, proud of his own shiny new black pickup sitting at the end of the parking lot, alone.  It is the helpful lifeguard at the country club pool who tells you how to order the best food from the snack bar to avoid the rush.  It is the businessmen at the minor league baseball game sitting behind you, John Connolly and James Baker look-alikes, who say hello and joke with you at the end of the game as you file out.  It is the ladies at the ballpark concession stand who are anxious for business and enjoy serving people.  It is respect for others’ property, and people who are positive and polite and who see the good in others.  The faces are squinty-eyed and lined and sometimes leathery under influence of the intense sun.  Odessa is adobe, too, and Spanish spoken everywhere, and hard-working Hispanics and blue-collar whites, and the wonderful parting everyone uses, “Adios.”  The lasting impression is of light and shadow.

I had a great visit with my sister and brother-in-law and nieces and nephews and their families, my cousin and his wife, and my sister’s golden retriever, “Lady,” who has the warmest brown eyes that look up at everyone adoringly, and who saunters over and sits down next to everyone, greeting everyone, calm and gentle, loving to perhaps play ball, carrying the tennis ball around in her mouth  and dropping it in your hands, and with her yellow retriever face smiling, black gums showing, her mouth hanging open, loving your pats on her head.  She could sit there all day enjoying those pats, occasionally raising her right paw and placing it on your knee for “shake,” her nails a bit firm, but friendly, the tail wagging occasionally, the black nose at the end of the pretty yellow snout.  You  stroke the side of her face gently around the eyes and side of the nose, then move down the nose to the skin of her turkey neck, loose, and brush the back of your hand along it.  Her eyes are still looking affectionately, gratefully at you for your kind attention.  How I love dogs.  Thank you also to “Dixie” and “Prince,” my childhood companions, border collie and English collie respectively.  I realize the importance of family above all else.

Leaving Odessa, I drive to Ft. Worth, three hundred miles on I-20, getting into Ft. Worth late.  The next morning, I was off to the Cultural Center, downtown, an array of museums, parks, and former fair grounds, built in the 1930s in the Texas Art Modern Style’s massive tan stone decorated with the lone star motif and engraved prairie murals of ranch life and cattle drives.  That massive architecture with the Lone Star always takes me immediately back to my Texas of the 1950s as a kid, of the pride you felt when you heard “The Yellow Rose of Texas” and “The Eyes of Texas are Upon You,” with the verse, “your father is from Dallas and your mother from Ft. Worth,” or visa versa, which we sang at school, and the cattle yards, and Petroleum Buildings, and old black and white license plates, and Air Force Bases with B-47s in the air, and orange and white Texas football uniforms with the longhorn logo on the white helmet, and learning Texas history and Spanish in first grade at Davy Crockett Elementary in El Paso, and the Lone Star flag, and everything named “Texan”, from hamburgers to cars, and wearing Easter clothes and snap down cowboy shirts of my own, and great movies about Texas like “Giant” which captured the flavor of the state better than anything, and later “Hud,” and “The Last Picture Show.”

I started in Ft. Worth with the Amon Carter Museum of American Art, which has the best Frederick Remington’s anywhere.  They were part of the museum centerpiece, creating, along with Charlie Russell paintings, the main entrance foyer, with one large room on each side for each artist.  Five Remingtons stood out for me: two beautiful yellow canvasses, one “His First Lesson,” 1903, of a cowboy breaking a bucking horse in front of a territorial or adobe building.  The horse is braying at the man who has just put a lasso on him.  The yellow landscape is divided from the pale blue sky by a violet line; another “Ridden Down,” portrayed from somewhere above a high butte, a Native American warrior with green chest paint walks a wet pony amid the pale blue sky and yellow mesas; “The Grass Fire” is one of Remington’s nocturnals, a style he experimented in the 1908 period, in green and Prussian cobalt, of native braves putting out a fire near a creek at night, with the fire illuminating part of the scene; “The Fall of the Cowboy,”1895, is a winter scene of the snow-covered prairie, two riders closing a gate, their horses patient, a beautiful blue-gray sky and white ground; and an unusual Remington, “Drum Corps,” of Mexican troops marching through an adobe village, 1889, with white and yellow chipped walls of pueblo houses in the background, the uniforms dusty and villagers watching. Remington’s nocturnes are my favorites.  The paint seems luminous.  I love the large yellow canvasses, of dry bleached out earth, and the almost oppressive sunlight, almost monotone.  But my favorite was the blue-gray and white snow scene, “The Fall of the Cowboy,” a post card copy of which now sits on my study bookcase.

The Carter also had a wonderful Ansel Adams photography exhibit, including some of his lesser known photographs dating back to his 1926 Exhibit in New York which was encouraged by Stieglitz, with the personal guidance from a member of Stieglitz’s staff, Paul Strand.  My favorite Adams’ photographs in the exhibit included several from his 1946 Portfolio (there wasn’t much between 1946 and his 1926 Portfolio) and some 1950s shots.  “Big Bend, Santa Elena Canyon, 1957” was shimmering, almost impressionistic, a black and white photograph of white puffy clouds and a mesa in the foreground .  The rock patterns in the mesa blended with the desert gravel in the near foreground.  “Pinnacles, California, 1945” was like a collection of patterns all coming together.  The Carter also had the original “Hernandez New Mexico, 1943, Moonlight.” The inscription said Adams got this by accident when returning from the Chama River.  Looking over his shoulder, he saw the village tombstones reflecting the moonlight, just as the sun was setting.  He told his nephew to get the tripod and camera off the mule as they only had a few minutes to work with.  “Maroon Wells, Colorado, 1951” captured a beautiful mountain pond surrounded by Aspens.

I also loved the American Impressionists section, especially Childe Hassam’s “Flags on the Waldorf,” 1916, one of his “Avenue of the Allies” World War I paintings of flags hanging from buildings in New York.  It looks vague until you step back and the brush strokes all come together.  I also enjoyed, as I always do, William Merritt Chase, whose “Idle Hours,” 1894, was similar to Monet, with women in fluffy dresses and parasols on the beach.  Not the usual Chase interiors.  John Singer Sargent’s “Portrait of Robert Louis Stevenson,” 1885, shows the great author tall but consumptive, pulling on his mustache while standing in front of a doorway.  Sargent’s “Alice Vanderbilt Shepard,” 1888, shows the young Mrs. Shepard wearing a black and white dress.  Her flesh is a marvelous color, and her introspection comes through.  There was the signature Georgia O’Keefe, “Ranchos of Taos Church, 1930,” with the well-known back view of the church she so loved, on the plan of a cross, with rounded buttresses, and the light tan walls blending with the white caliche of the soil.  I loved the nautical paintings of Fitz Henry Lane, who is somewhat new to me, and his “Boston Harbor,” 1856, of a flat gray sea and sleek, almost streamlined Clipper ship on the canvas and masted ships and a paddle wheeler on the left portion.  This gave me insight into the Clippers, with their sleeker bow and lower lines than their predecessors, built for speed.  It also showed what the U.S. was about between 1800 and the Civil War.  I also liked George Innes’ “Approaching Storm,” 1885, a moody piece with greens predominating; and Martin Johnson Heade, a new discovery for me, whose “Salt Marshes and Hay Rolls” and “Thunderstorms over Narragansett,” 1866, were great mood pieces.  Another new discovery was William McCloskey’s sill life “Wrapped Oranges,” 1899, showing oranges wrapped in tissue paper, sitting on a lacquered redwood base, and with a cobalt background.  It was a tromp l’oeil, fooling the eye, appearing three-dimensional. There were two wonderful Auguste St. Gaudens bronze sculptures, “Diana of the Tower,” 1899, a smaller version of the same piece which stood atop Madison Square Gardens until it was torn down for the Empire State Building. And, a bronze relief in oak frame, of Robert Louis Stevenson, 1900, with one of his poems inscribed on the base.  What a great period for art, the end of the 19th Century and beginning of the 20th: St. Gaudens, Remington, Sargent, Chase, Whistler, O’Keefe, etc.

From the Carter, i walked across the park to the Kimball Museum, a beautiful structure designed by Louis Kahn, of concrete, steel and marble, and a series of Roman arched shaped roofs, and an interior with pine wood floors.  My favorites from the European Section was Edvard Munch’s “Girls on a Pier,” 1904, his expressionistic masterpiece, using slanting pink and aquamarine lines, to depict a full moon, Grand Hotel in the background, and three girls on a bridge in the foreground.  The girl figures have no faces, but you can depict their moods by their petulant postures.  It was similar to another Munch’s I recently saw at the Getty in Los Angeles, “Starry Night.”   The Kimball also had a variety of portraits representing various schools and eras, including Juan Miro’s “Portrait of Herberto Gasony,” 1918, Fauvist, of the sitter in a bright yellow shirt; “Rembrandt Laughing,” 1628, a small oil from the Dutch school; and Cezanne’s “Man in a Blue Smock,” next to his landscape, “Maison Mara,” 1896, of small cubist houses in Provence, with the usual tiled roofs and stuccoed walls, using short parallel brush strokes of the same color throughout the canvas, including in empty spaces.  There was also Manet’s “Portrait of Clemenceau,”1879, almost realist rather than impressionistic, in black and gray; Goya’s portrait of the famous matador, Pedro Romero, 1795, in gray, black, and white, with great facial detail; and Velasquez’s “Portrait of Don Pedro de Barbarena,” 1631, a large black and white work, but with the subject, a member of he court of Philip IV, dressed in a puffy sleeved knight’s costume with red embroidery.  It seemed almost from the Dutch school.  For me, it was the masterpiece of the gallery.

There was a wonderful, but somewhat unusual van Gogh,”Street in Saintes Marias de la Mer,” 1888, without the usual broad brush strokes, and relying instead, Fauvist style, on strong colors to pull it together, depicting yellowish thatched roofs set against chimney smoke.  There were some excellent Northern Renaissance works, including a south German silver sculpture, “Virgin and Child,” 1486, with inlaid sapphires and pale emeralds, and a Louis Cranach the Elder painting, “Young Maidens,” of bathing nudes.  From the Italian Renaissance, there was Fra Angelica’s “Apostle St. James,” 1483, Mantegna’s “Madonna, child, Elizabeth and John the Baptist,” 1500, Bellini’s “Christ Blessing,” 1500, with Christ looking face on, direct at the viewer, and with somewhat  healed scars on the body, quite impressive, and also Bellini’s “Madonna and Child,” more modern in style, with brighter than usual colors, black, reds, and golds, more vivid and humanistic, and with the Venetian blues Bellini is known for appearing also.

There were some fine antiquities throughout the museum, including a Cycladic female figure, translucent, with arms crossed, folded one above the other, dated 2300 BCE, one of the best Cycladic figures I have seen anywhere.  At the bottom of the stairwell leading to the Asian and African sections, were some remarkable Assyrian reliefs of winged deities, kingly figures, dated 860 BCE, carved from gypsum.  There were Japanese block prints and screens and Chinese pale blue pottery works, Mayan ceramic containers, one gallon in capacity, with pink murals painted on the sides showing the violence of the culture, the “blood drainings,”  plus a portion of a Mayan wall fresco, “Presenting the Captives,” dated 785 BCE.  There was also a Mexican Teotihuacan somewhat faded fresco in red of a King dispensing favors.  From the African Section, came a Yoruba (Nigerian) terracotta mask of a King’s head, with grooves and red dyes, and a Congolese Diviner’s Mask, smooth and simple, (Liberian) Dan like in appearance.  Good job, Ft. Worth.

As I come out of the museum and walk to my car, parked by the fair building, I am hit immediately by the intense sun and heat, which seems so pure and clean.  But, lingering in the back of my mind, pushing aside thoughts of art and my drive home, is a story I try not to think about, one my sister told me the day before on this trip, in Odessa, about my mother’s death in 1995 at the Odessa Medical Center, in ICU on life support, and yet able to squeeze my sister’s hand when told I was on my way from Washington.  I turn around to look at the sky in the direction of the Dallas-Ft. Worth International Airport to the northeast, and remember that morning, and the fact that I somehow knew the exact moment she passed, while circling above Dallas before landing and changing planes.  She had told me not to be afraid.  I don’t dwell on this.  I am still in denial.  (2010)

Flying in on Horizon Airlines from Helena, we pass over the western Montana ranges and Lolo National Forest, past Coeur d’Alene, continuing over flat, wrinkly, brown eastern Washington, once a lake bottom, then encountering mountains again, this time the volcanic Cascades running north to south, seeing Mt. Hood, which I climbed once with my Uncle, and Mt. Rainier, and finally coming in over Seattle, with Tacoma to the south and the San Juan Islands and modern skyline of Seattle straight ahead.  Seattle is beautiful, vying for the most beautiful of our large cities, with its forested hills, Puget Sound setting, Pacific Northwest culture, and high tech overlay.  There are lakes, and hilly, pine covered islands and bays all over, surrounded by white houses and jetties, and sailboats everywhere.

Unlike most large cities on the coasts, in Seattle you can have real contact with sea, just by riding the Washington State Ferries from the San Juan Islands to Bellingham and Vancouver, or taking a forty-five minute run from the Seattle waterfront to Bremerton and Bainbridge Island, which I did.  You can stand on the deck and look out at the water, watch the gulls straining into the headwinds overhead, and enjoy the view.  There is a lot of the old Seattle left amid the new: the Victorian and bungalow neighborhoods, the pre-World War I red brick buildings, and the World War II concrete buildings, torpedo factories, and steel cantilever bridges, painted green.  All this is juxtaposed with the gleaming, tall, 55 story skyscrapers, mainly post-modern, meaning Seattle took off after the 1960s to 80s era of steel curtain boxes.  It is a nice combination of old and new, and provides a panorama of history, of the different decades and eras.  It fixes you in time.

Seattle has an interesting bus system, with 1950s era looking buses, running in subway tunnels under Third Street.  There is a wonderful waterfront with sea food markets. The car ferries running the Sound also look 1950ish.   Seattle does things right, like Paris, Salt Lake City, or Milwaukee, where everything is well planned and functional, and with an eye to the aesthetic as well.  Most of the street corners downtown have small park-like settings with shade trees hanging over benches at bus and tram stops.  Seattle is a diverse city, typified by the Anglo-Asian couple I observed on the Bremerton ferry, sitting at their window table, eating Chinese carry-out with chop sticks, out of white paper containers, sharing.  People downtown are open, friendly, and helpful, taking time to give you clear directions.  Seattle is also high tech and modern and affluent, with green painted buses advertising they are hybrid, and Frank Lloyd Wright influenced architects, and Microsoft employees living and working in the suburbs, and with Boeing in nearby Everett.  It is a city of the young.  I have never felt so old.  Twenty somethings wearing hip t-shirts were everywhere, absorbed in their Blackberries and I Pods, even before the technology spread.  They are oblivious to anyone over 50.  I was anonymous to them.  The young own Seattle, more than they own Washington, D.C., Atlanta, or Chicago, other youth culture cities.

As usual, I concentrated on doing the things I like to do, repeating earlier visits.  I made straight for Seattle’s Capitol Hill district, which reminds me of Georgetown in D.C., but quieter and less commercial, enjoying the gyro platter at “Byzantium,” before drifting over to the Museum of Asian Art, whose gardens offer a great view of the city below.   I capped off the day by walking down from First Hill to Pioneer Square, stopping along the way by the Arctic Club, the one time hang out for explorers like Admiral Byrd, a great place to rent a room for not much more than a hotel.  In Pioneer Square, I browse Globe Books and Elliott Bay Booksellers.  Globe is a small bookstore, with a good, select collection of the international writers. Being in my lyrical mode, I was looking for Harry Matthews, Cyril Connolly, Paul Bowles, and James Salter, which they had.  Elliott Bay was like Powell’s in Portland or City Lights in San Francisco, having everything.

My second day in town, I walked around Bell Town, where I was staying, and wandered around Lake Union and the Space Needle.   After an afternoon siesta, I read for a while in the room, then walked to the waterfront, eventually taking  an evening ferry to Bremerton, getting off,  having dinner at Anthony’s seafood restaurant near the dock, and later riding back on the return ferry to Seattle, facing the lit up amber and white Seattle skyline at night, sitting on the deck in the cold breeze.  That night, I strolled through the Pike Street Market area with its raw fish stacked for display, talking to my son in Las Cruces on the cell phone.  What a great feeling, walking the waterfront, and talking to one’s son.  He should consider Seattle as a place to settle, I told him.  Asia is the future and Seattle will be ever more important.  As I was talking, yellow street lights were reflecting off the wet brick streets and from glass fronted coffee shops in the dark Seattle night, the smells of good coffee, fish, and sea in the air.

The next day,  I rented a car and drove east, out of town, to the pine and spruce forested Issaquah suburb just to enjoy the moist pine and spruce forest and have a Fat Burger at the franchise there, with the thick French fries, crisp on the outside but soft within, very French.  I rank Fat Burger a bit ahead of The Habit burgers in Santa Barbara, Five Guys, and In and Out Burger, other favorite franchises.  Would I drive from Helena to Issaquah for a Fat Burger?  Probably not.  Would I drive ten miles from Seattle, through traffic?  Of course.  From Issaquah, I drove back into the city, passing through Mercer Island, into the downtown area, parking near the Seattle Art Museum, just across from Pike Street Market.

I was very impressed with SAM, as the museum is called, and amazed to discover the best exhibit of African art anywhere, with life-sized statues of African dancers in native garb, hundreds of African masks and sculptures on display, and explanations of the symbolism of the animals represented in the art: the snake that helps fertilize the fields, the antelope who sews the seeds, the hornbill that brings prized nuts, the parakeet that breaks them open, etc.   I loved the long headed Cameroonian crocodile with its smooth forehead, a symbol of feminine grace.  One mask, called “the Ancient One,” the deity, had lots of animal parts attached to it, symbolic of the animist thoughts of man, of the clear, unconscious mind.  My other favorites included the stylized Malian (Dogon) antelopes, called “Chauraros”; a Dogon “black monkey” with the lower jaw open on its large mouth, representing the chimpanzee who sits on the edge and makes mischief and obscene gestures, trying to gain attention; the Sierra Leone (Mende) masks with layered headdresses; the plain and simple, smooth Liberian (Dan) masks; and the red, green, and black blocks of beads on Masai headdresses.  Behind all this, was a wonderful black and white, old 16mm. film, projected on the wall, of African villagers dancing these same masks and costumes in real native ceremonies, the entire village enjoying the scene, and even some dancers on stilts. Even after living in Africa and collecting masks, I learned a lot.  The SAM display was the best presentation I have seen anywhere, in terms of understanding African tribal culture.

The museum goers were the typical Seattleites, a bit Yuppie and upper middle class looking, with well behaved kids. I observed one school tour, a classroom of third graders, being lectured by a docent on the correct way to weave baskets, and how to cook salmon, running reeds through the meat and roasting it over fire.  This was taking place in front of museum displays depicting native cultures they were emulating. The students were attentive, sitting in a circle on the museum floor, and no horse play from the boys.  There was great diversity: two girls in Arab scarves, several African Americans, Anglos, and Asians.  In another part of the museum, I watched a mother telling her five year old daughter not to touch the Greek mask, and the child asking good questions.  There was also a “grunge” looking couple, the mother perhaps part native American, leading their daughter, about six, through the gallery, the child operating the monitors and headphones, pushing the right buttons, moving along from numbered item to numbered item, through numerous halls, like an adult would.  Yes, Charles, you need to settle in Seattle: the kids in Arab scarves; fish and chips at Azar’s or Anthony’s; eating Chinese food from boxes on the Washington State ferry.

So, what else did I like in the museum.  First was the Flemish tapestries, indigo, with rust and purple dyes, and red patterns on them.  My next favorites were several Egyptian basalt and granite busts of pharaohs, some partially broken; archaic Greek bronze masks, like those worn against the Trojans, with nose covers and slits for eyes; and three other greek items, a red figure wine cup depicting a discus thrower, pieced seamlessly together from broken fragments, circa 480 BCE,  a stamnoi jug with chariot race depiction, and an archaic ground white perfume bottle.  There was an impressive Persian bass relief of a servant carrying a cloth covered bowl and a geometric patterned pottery bowl, both from Persepolis.  The Chinese ivory collection included a carving of a seated duck, which opened to show small figures of humans inside. There were two marvelous rooms: a Japanese tearoom, illustrating the Wabi aesthetic of nature, simplicity, and asymmetry; and an Italian Renaissance room with wood paneling and display cases holding porcelain dishes.  From the Revolutionary War period, there was a powder horn carved from pine by an American minuteman, a beautiful maple high chest, dated 1770, and a collection of Turnbull paintings of Revolutionary War battles: Bunker Hill, 1775, Saratoga, 1777, and Yorktown, 1781. There was a great picture of General Gates, whom I heard one visitor say was the best general of the war, Washington’s strategist while Washington was in York or Philadelphia lobbying for funds.

With regard to paintings, I am always on the look out for Frederick Remington paintings, and admired his “Last Man Standing,” of a range war.  Thomas Eaton’s painting of Maude Cook in pink, 1895, showed the emotional vulnerability of the sitter.  I also loved Winslow Homer’s paintings of a red mill and Adirondack lake, and a 19th Century painting of native Americans playing lacrosse on the ice by an artist whose name I missed.  There was a wonderful collection of George deForest Brush paintings of native Americans and exotic birds, flamingos, swans, geese, and one in particular of a native with bow and arrow, hunting amid the green reeds of the Everglades, aiming at white cranes taking flight, their jagged edged wings spread out.  The combination of turquoise water, green reeds, blue sky, and white cranes, was beautiful and simplistic, and haunting.  There were some Alexander Gardner photos of the American Civil War, including a well known image of a trestle bridge.  For me, the piece d’resistance was an Italian Renaissance wood panel by Uccello, “Invasion of the Trojans,” of a battle scene showing the Italians evacuating as Rome was founded.  It was reminiscent of his San Romano battle panels, mainly in blacks and whites, with red touches.

I left the museum thinking of the Cameroonian crocodile mask, archaic Greek helmet, Greek “red figure” wine cup, and the deForest Brush paintings of native Americans and exotic birds.  Had salmon at Sound View Cafe in Pike Street Market amid friendly wait staff, looking out at the bay and down below at the wharf area with iron bridges, corrugated tin roofs, and professional, well dressed people out for dinner not far from the design and architectural supply stores I like.

From Seattle, I kept the rental car, driving south to Portland, having steak and Stella Artois at Jake’s Grill downtown, browsing Powell books, and enjoying the beautiful river town with bridges running everywhere over the Willamette, with new boldly colored streetcars adding a European touch, and old and new buildings together and lots of public squares and gardens.  After a few days in Portland, I went on to Bend, where I paid respects to my Uncle, enjoying his favorite Obsidian Dark ale at the Deschutes Brewery, before putting flowers on his grave at the memorial park.  I didn’t have time to call on his loyal friends, the judge, Bruce and Sharon,  Sue, and others who kept him going for years.  As I left the cemetery, leaving the Aspen Garden, I felt I got a message from him, “your uncle loves you,” which he used to always say, a phrase I had forgotten over time.  Maybe a message got through.  Bob was always my biggest fan.

I look forward to the road home: Redmond, Madras, the Dalles, along Columbia River, north to Spokane, and then the final stretch, Coeur d’Alene, Missoula, Helena.  I stop at the Black Bear Diner in Madras for their ample portion of meatloaf with its dark, rich gravy.  Life is an oyster.  (2009)

Colorado is one of the Rocky Mountain states with a touch of the southwest, mixing together  the Hispanic, Country and western, high tech, evangelical, and REI/Patagonia.  It is a beautiful state with a split personality which makes it hard to call in elections.  even the climate is mixed, southwestern warm but cold and snowy in the winter.  Denver is pretty with its sprawling, attractive suburbs like Westminster and Castle Rock, each with close to 200,000 population and with the Rockies as a backdrop and green and gold grasslands to the east, the plains.  The downtown is nice, with its silver and tan steel and marble faced skyscrapers, international style without a lot of post-modern buildings confusing the picture.  With its downtown convention and museum area, Denver no longer has the feeling that there is no there there.  The city is about young people and has a high tech feel, like Seattle but without the sea.  There are lots of Subarus and Priuses and soccer for the kids, a general feeling of an affluent lifestyle.  You can tell a lot by the baseball fans.

We went to a Colorado Rockies game on the 4th of July with our niece’s family and was amazed at what a family park this was, and how many students of all ages were in the stands.  It was a bit Yuppie, like Camden Yards in Baltimore or Mariners games in Seattle.  The Rockies were fun to watch, even though they only win at home.  They are like Minnesota or Oakland, a young team that does everything well, the small things, like hitting the cut off man or turning the double play.  Speedy, good defense, produce when you have to, no mistakes.  After the game, there was a wonderful fireworks display.  They turned off the stadium lights and Lockheed-Martin provided the fireworks.  The final section was a chain reaction with intense flashes and concussions, all in silver, like a bombardment, five blasts in a row, simultaneous, side by side, horizontal and only a few hundred feet up, level with the upper stands it seemed, followed by a solid stream of colored tracers shooting upward in the sky, the final volley.  When it was over, people were sitting silent in the stands for a while, recovering.  It reminded me of the bombardments set off around Moscow in its holiday celebrations.  It was like an artillery barrage from canons circling the city.  You expected to  see German bombers overhead.

The next day we went to the Denver Art Museum which was  very good, much like the Seattle Art Museum, with a wide variety.  My favorite items in the gallery were the early Twientieth Century Taos and Santa Fe painters, from the Taos artists Society.  This school is one of my new interests at the moment, along with Japanese and German stamps, the naval war in the Pacific in WWII, and William Faulkner.  There was an excellent Nicolai Fechin oil of a Mexican cowboy, two excellent Gustave Baumann woodblock color prints, “Summer Clouds” and “Processional,” Bert Phillips’ “Camp at Red Rock,”  And, I admired Robert Henri’s “Tam Po Qus,” of a Native American girl, rather impressionistic.   I also admired E. Martin Hennings’ “Girl With Blanket,” also of a Native American girl and his “Rendezvous,” both with bright colors, the latter in a birch grove, with fields of medium green; Oscar Berningshouse’s “Taos Field Workers,” and Walter Ufer’s “The Kiset Studio,” a tan adobe building with blue window trim, and with dark bluish green mountains, his trademark, in the background, dated 1929.  Joseph Henry Sharp’s  soft colors in “The Red Olla,” of a Taos native girl, was appealing, along with E. Irving Crouse’s “War Dance at Glorieta,” 1903, with native Americans crouching at a campfire.  Crouse is always a bit contrived for me, however.

My second favorite item following the Taos group, was Deborah Butterfield’s, “Orion,”  one of her glossy red, abstract steel horses which capture the essence of what a horse is.  There are other Butterfield horses in the Smithsonian Museum in Washington, D.C.,  the Billings, Montana Yellowstone Art Museum, at Texas Tech University, etc.  I never miss the opportunity to see one.  My third favorite item in the Denver Museum was an Edward Curtis photograph, “Sioux Girl and Winter Camp.”  My fourth item was Thomas Eakins’ painting “Cowboy, Study at Badlands,” 1887, in green and chartreuse, a chalk drawing appearance, of a cowboy sighting a rifle, using his horse’s back as a stand, quite intriguing.  My fifth favorite was Frederick Remington’s “The War Bride.”  Other favorites included the French Impressionists, especially Pisarro’s “Banks of the Oise,” 1867, and Monet’s “Water  Lily” pond scene.  I also liked Julius Alden Wier’s “Dansbury Hills,” 1908, and a Juan Gris still life, cubist, in tan and chartreuse, showing a piece of the newspaper, Le Journal, dated 1916.

The museum had a wonderful furniture and crafts section, showcasing a Biedermeier bureau, 1820, of walnut and satin wood, and a Japanese Edo cabinet, dated 1750, black lacquer and silver fittings, with two accompanying chairs, also black lacquer with horseshoe shaped backs.  The native crafts section of the museum was terrific.  There was a memorable Ute robe, of red cloth and with white bead work, and a Ute men’s shirt combining leather and black and white cloth.  There was a Nez Perce dress, black with beads, some beautiful, feather patterned San Ildefonso black pottery, some Sioux large possible bags, and a Sioux dress, made of deerskin, with blue and white beads.

The items which lingered with me, mesmerized me, were a blue Ming vase, porcelain, with the blue underglaze for 1426-1475 timeframe; the Biedermeier furniture; the Sioux beaded dresses and. Nez Perce and Ute clothing; Julius Alden Wier’s still life, the Eakins cowboy with rifle, and Walter Ufer’s adobe renditions.

Before heading south on my own, I drop my wife at the Denver International Airport and discover another favorite place in the process, the west balcony of the main terminal, an exposed porch under a blue canvas roof, with blue metal chairs and tables, from which you can watch planes landing.  The airport itself is a beautiful architectural design, like a ships sails, held by cables, all interconnected to form a roof.  From this exposed porch, you can see for miles around.  To the east are golden fields heading towards Nebraska and Western Kansas.  To the west are the grayish purple mountains.  To the south, straight ahead is. Pima Road, connecting to Interstate 70.  Overhead are billowy cumulus clouds, some silver, mostly white, with patches of blur sky in between.  It looks like it might rain, but to the east, the skies are clearing.  The overall impression is of a green and tan landscape, a flat panorama.  You can watch planes landing from the south, as if on a highway in the sky, descending gradually a few minutes apart, their engine pods hanging below the wings.  Several. Alaska Airlines planes land, no banking, but descending fast, gliding down faster than expected from some altitude, wing lights blinking, the nose only slightly down.  As they approach in the distance, you can see orange dots beneath the wings, the engines.

I leave the airport , I drive south on I-25 towards Santa Fe.  Passing through  Colorado Springs, I think of LeRoy, my next door neighbor in Roswell growing up.  LeRoy, retired Army officer, who shared his great wit and wisdom with the neighbor kid.  LeRoy, one of my heroes, who died of a heart attack in Colorado Springs while visiting his daughter.  As I drive south, between Pueblo and. Trinidad, the landscape becomes drier, not desert but a few less mountains and warmer.  I begin to see the distinctive yellow and orange New Mexico license plates on cars. I feel like I am going home although I left New Mexico in the 1970s for a career abroad and in Washington, D.C.  (2009)